The CC - What Near-Death Failed to Teach Me.


What Near-Death Failed to Teach Me.

I came so close to dying that day. Cycling to the Rocky Mountain office, 30kph, and suddenly I was airborne.

Time compressed in those milliseconds.

What hit me?

I’ve got a bike show next week!

Then a strange thought:

This is an amazing airshow!

Everything went black. I lay there, knowing nothing. Minutes later, my rattled brain started to wake.

Confused, I looked up into the pale-blue morning sky, and a startled face, peering down.

The big guy radiated fear, “Damn, how did I miss you?”

His voice cracking with emotion, “I’m driving that rig, and I barely saw you land in front of my grill.”

Still lying awkwardly on the road, I winced from pain as I turned my head to see his tractor-trailer just a few metres away.

“I…I veered, I braked. But I don't know how I missed you,” he said.

I ran my bloodied arm over my eyes, staring blankly at the driver.

During the ragged ride in the ambulance, the pain was excruciating. I could tell it was something more than road rash.

In Emerg, while collecting my statement, the police officer said “You’re lucky, you’re still with us.”

Trying to grasp it all I wondered why she would say that. “She’s likely seen much worse,” I thought. And then I said, “Huh. The truck driver said that too.”

She continued, “Your choice of landing in the front of the semi wasn’t ideal if you planned on living today.”

“Ha ha!” I forced a laugh.

Lying in Emerg, high on pain killers, I had hours of time to ponder. “Was I lucky? Fated? Supernaturally rescued? Shouldn’t an accident like that force a kind of reckoning?”

It didn’t.

This was in 1992, and after six weeks of convalescing from a broken femur, I was back to new bike designs, race team, customers, and the rest. I limped on, a new plate screwed on my bone. No thoughts of a change in any of my activities.

I was continuing as normal, measuring my self-worth by sales growth, money, and world recognition.

Sure, there were a few voices from my family questioning my intensity, and business passion. I couldn’t hear the logic of these voices: “You were given this unexpected gift of life. Why don’t you stop and think! Take a look around and see if you still want to go on as hard!”

I thought survival itself was proof enough that I was on the right path. Why would I want to examine bigger questions?

But years later, I knew I had confused my achievement with my identity. And this near-death experience simply planted a question that took a decade to answer.

Have you ever looked back and realized you were living with an identity you never examined?


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See you next week,

Grayson

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